19.2.05 -

i am quite emotional actuali i think.so easily affect by people.i dunno bahx.sometime when i recall back.i am reli a jerk or whatever.i am like so insensitive to sum people though i carn recall.but from the things dey told me.haish.how i wish i can go back to e past.i reli din know tad i was tad impt till u tell me tad i am.perhaps i am reli stupid bahx.maybe u all thought tad i dun care.but i reli dunno.realise tad dere r so many good frens arounds me loving me sooo much.shld learn to cherish the people arnd me.everyone keeps telling me to do dat.i am reli trying hard le.hope u all realise oso yarr?and thankew people who bought me e b-dae gift bahx.though i noe onli mummy went to buy.but at least u all contributed the money.thanx.yesterdae my girl told me tad i am always affecting people arnd me.though she said in a joking wae but when i think back bout the things u people told me.i guess i am.i dunno why oso.u all tell me its nobody's fault.but i know deep inside u all wish tad i cld realise is my fault so tad i can change?haix.sumtimes i reli wish i cld change my character oso.but it is just me bahx.hope u all can understand.but if u all have anything.please gao shu wo.dun be angry with me and wan me go guess wad u r feeling.todae will be starting afresh.no longer wish to think bout youu.becuz i think we reli two wrolds apart.seriously.i reli admit it man.i think u feel it too.so yarr.just remain as wad we are now laa.
i wan to cry out loud to vent all my feelings
but the tears just wun flow
will the boy ever smile again
i hope he will becuz he will try
fer the sake of the few people
who love him sooo much
thankew people =)

9:15:00 AM
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