28.2.06 -

it has been so long since i last blogg
hmm life seems so deadd now
hah
feel so slack.tired.sicked
i reli reli wanna do well in tennis
u noe to reli fight my place to be selected
it seems e harder i try
the lousier i got seriously
i jus dunch noe how to carry on from here
at first everyone thot i was hmm not bad got potential
but now i start to get worse
and i became like someone who doesnt even noe e basics
haii.losing my confidence.motivation.
its like i dunch noe how to do it
i feel lost and down but somehow i am still hanging on
just hope tad somedae
things will get better somehow
yeah.i mean wad can i reli do right.
maybe i jus dun have wad it takes
yeah.started late.no coaching.and everything is on my own.
wow.tads e difficult thing man.but nvms.
todae i just went to OGL meeting.
i have been poning so much
and tad todaes session makes me feel guilty
makes me determined to work hard
to learn all e cheers and dances
and to do my best for vega hah
yeah.i think i am doing e right thing
dunch noe why did i slack OGL so much
reli regretted
done wrong to those who worked hard
yeah.i am reli sorry
actually i think i may have seemed like i dun care
or wadever larh but just wan those ppl
who stood by me when i am in trouble or wad
big thanx to u all though i may seem tad i dun bother
but it matters to me alot.i jus keep it in my heart for myself to noe
yeah.maybe tads me.
so maybe its my weakness
i try my best to correct it : )
haha
after march holidaes
i am working hard le man : )
i want to ace my a levels haha
watch me
as i am strugglin thru this tough period
GOD is with me
HE is sufffering with me
my motivation.faith.stength.
as long as i try my best
yupp
he will guide me thru tennis and studies
and of cuz frenship.family too : )
jiayous to xavier.reivax. : )

i am always available at 96836709 : ) call me or sms me when u have nothing to do haha
just crapping.yuppx
have faith people
all problems arised with solutions
its onli a matter of time

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