23.4.05 -

sometimes i feel tad life is reli unfair.its like when it seems u going to win it.in e end u did not.why liddat or is it GOD has plans fer everyone?sumtimes when i feel i gave my best yet did not get in return wad i am supposed to get.and its not once.its many times.i am reli tired le.i dunno.but ppl commented i am over-confident.is it that this over-confidence in my heart tad lead to my many downfalls?i guess it is bahx.cuz i cannot find any other reasons fer my failures.being in e same com fer so long.now den i know how much my other member has suffered in silence fer so long.it is so heartbreaking.and i feel reli guilty tad i did not even know at all.i dunno how e others will feel.but i reli feel so xin suan.seriously.but this person reli hide it so well tad we could not even see.or is it tad we are so not committed then we neglect this person fer so long.haish.i reli dunno.i feel so shi bai in every areas of my life.studies cca council and everything.nothing seems to go well.wads e point of sacrificing time to put into cca and council.as a result parents scoldings nagging studies like shit.in e end.both sides i got nothing.tired.tired.nothing can describe my feeling now.hanging on fer another month.its cuming to an end.i oso noe i dun have good ren yuan laa.i know it laa.alot ppl dun like me bahx.i am just sorry tad i just dun have tad look to make u all like me?i have achieved nothing in my 16 years of life.nothing =D
where are my raining daes &
where r u when i need u e most?

6:59:00 PM
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