12.10.05 -

i dun wish to bluff myself anymore
i dun wan to live in
a world of fantasies and hope
its upsetting
i am trying hard to accept
the truth and reality
i noe i will do it one dae
so i reli hope
GOD u can give me
e strength and faith
to forget wad i should forget
i reli need YOU
i reli find it stupid
tad i am hoping
fer something
ridiculous
though i always say
its impossible
but deep in my heart
i am wishing it to happen
i dun wish to bluff myself
ITS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN
i hope i can change my mindset
like wad she say
but fer this period i carn
i sincerely hope
someone can take a stick
and hit it hard on my head
and make me lose my memories
so tad i can start everything afresh
or maybe a car might knock me down
and then i'll be in coma
and by the time i wake up
i wun even noe who i am
how nice and sweet
tad will reli be : )
at least i wun be
thinking and doing the wrong thing now
i dun wan to think in this wae
please change me
forgive me
i am reli sorrie
just let me go
i dun wan it anymore
i wanna give it up
i noe it is a right decision
come on man

-have faith and you will have e power-

10:09:00 PM
My Buddies